IF YOU WERE A POEM!

If you were a poem,I would take my time.I would carefully think through all of the words,I would search for meanings that were more illusiveand I would write them, not type them,on paper for you. If you were a poem,I would read you aloud to a small crowd,because you only deserve the most intimate setting,and... Continue Reading →

THE NECKLACE (PART 1)

This is a trilogy, every part will be published on Monday with today being the 1st part, next parts to be out on 13th and 20th February! One year. Tirth knew what a big deal it was for me to have finally felt comfortable enough with someone to stay in a relationship with them for... Continue Reading →

DOES HE KNOW ME?

We were happy for a while. We were happy when you walked through my door and we could pretend he didn’t exist. You have to admit that it was actually pretty easy. Sometimes I’d ask about him, to be polite and all that, but you two together felt like a different reality.I knew you first.... Continue Reading →

YOU BELONG TO ME

You’ve been warned. This story is very disturbing.The duct tape feels coarse. The sound it emits as it unravels cuts through the darkness, announcing its presence above the pleas for life.The dark grey confines Anjali to the chair.When the mouth is covered, silence greets us for the first time in hours.What a reprieve. The quiet... Continue Reading →

IT’S ME

“Shhh! Kunal, we have to be quiet out here! He he!”Kunal slipped his arm around my neck, and I snuggled into his side.“What? You scared a ghost is going to get you if I taunt them a little bit?”“He he…Kunal, seriously! It is spooky out here!”“Hey. You’re right. We should be quiet. We won’t be... Continue Reading →

YOU ARE GONE!

You favoured me. I enjoyed you. Even if it was simply to the bedroom, it looked like our relationship was going someplace.Even if they weren't prepared for a relationship, I've had females sleep with me. Girls who slept with me have afterwards decided they don't want to be friends with me.In the worst situation, I... Continue Reading →

DON’T WORRY BABY

It had just past midnight. A single black automobile entered an empty parking lot. Under the acid-yellow glare of the streetlights, it moved like a shadow before veering into the farthest corner and stopping abruptly. The driver got out of the automobile as the motor shut off, and the vehicle trembled nervously. She wrenched a... Continue Reading →

I AM SORRY!

I have spent three daysApologizing with reverent loveCompassion moisturizing my skinUnderstanding massaging my organsHope and promisesSustaining networks of fasciaHonoringHonoringAll for loveClarity gently invitesHarmonyAnd joyAs my heart beatsWithout force or pleaAs it beat for years despite meI would pray on my kneesSoaked in my tearsPlease give up on meLet me goI need my last breathTired and... Continue Reading →

WAIT, WHAT?

Living in your childhood home with your parents as an adult has a few benefits. Most people know the basics. You get to live rent-free. You get to eat home-cooked meals. You get to not worry about someone stealing your laundry (unless you have siblings, of course). There is one other benefit that exists, however,... Continue Reading →

YET I LOVE YOU

I sneak out of his bed around 3 and gather my clothes from the floor. I don’t bother picking up my heart; I think I’ll leave it there to collect some dust. Maybe it’ll get swept up by the maid on Friday and make its way to the landfill by next week. Outside, I dissolve... Continue Reading →

WHAT A WOMAN!

Women are ambitious, confident, multifaceted, independent and strong. They are naturally magnetic to those who encounter them. They usually have something special about them that makes them stand out from the crowd; they are wild, they are brave, they are unbound and they are often times unpredictable. Untethered by anything or anyone, they are the... Continue Reading →

Dear Parents

To,Dear Parents I've stopped dismissing you like I used to, I've begun listening more like I used to, and I've stopped trying to prove my point in favour of trying to grasp what you're trying to say. Since I was a young child, I have been thinking about these emotions constantly. When you passthe teenage... Continue Reading →

Duniya mein aaye ho toh judge karlo!

Before passing judgement on someone, you should be aware that they are only giving you a partial view of who they are. They are just presenting you with the information they want you to see. Not quite accurate Before you judge someone, you should know that they’ve been through much more than you know. That... Continue Reading →

CD!

I was diagnosed with clinical depression. The first thing I thought was, “Oh, so I’m one of them now.” Them, as in the people who have mental health conditions that I didn’t think of as that serious of a condition until I had it. Yes, I was one of the uncaring—no, uninformed—individuals. I never fully understood what depression was and what it... Continue Reading →

Investment!

Everybody has the ability to step into their highest self. To know your purpose for living and to be able to figure out your path is a very magical thing. It transforms you into the better version of who you are. It gives meaning to your life. But it requires one thing—investing in yourself. But... Continue Reading →

Nope!

If a woman doesn’t want you, you should never have to plead your case and convince her otherwise. Storytime! Let me tell you about the time a girl dumped me after two dates and I spent almost a year trying to get her to love me. We’ll call her Draupadi. She and I had a bunch of... Continue Reading →

Knock Knock!

My parents separated when I was in college. It was a long time coming and when I went away to school, they lost their last reason to stay together. It was about two years before my mom started dating. When she met Mark, I was home from my senior year of college for winter break.... Continue Reading →

Lights on!

Lowering your expectations of life is absolutely necessary if you want to be happy in it. The world is gloomy. Dream in the dark, but be ready to wake up. Then practise going through the motions until you are an expert. at taking the necessary action to keep the lights on. at making commitments and... Continue Reading →

A note to self!

Why do I care too much when I know the other person doesn't give a fuck? That is clearly my problem. I think too much. I am aware that everything around me is disintegrating, and I am unable to put my faith in anyone. I have no desire to accomplish anything, but how long? I'll... Continue Reading →

Embrace the chaos!

I wanted to flee. I desired to flee from everyone and everything, even the pressure of selecting a spouse and the notion of finding the ideal match. I wanted to escape the daily struggle I have with myself over what to study, what career to pursue, and whether to work a 9 to 5 corporate... Continue Reading →

Why is he not into me?

I met a guy a few days ago at my new work. Enough of a cutie, single, and wonderful physique. Who wants the drama of becoming engaged with someone from work? So I wasn't really interested. I just assumed that we would get along well at work. But then he began to speak. And I... Continue Reading →

A new way to look at love!

I have questioned if you were it for me ever since the day you departed. I only truly realised what love was when I gazed at you. I already knew you loved me; I didn't need you to tell me. Our words could never adequately convey what our eyes were saying. Perhaps we were both... Continue Reading →

Thank you!

I was going through one of the hardest times of my life when I first met her. I was afraid that she would not love me for the wreck that I was because I knew I was damaged beyond repair. She never did, though. She merely widened her arms and tightened her embrace. She never... Continue Reading →

I hope I haunt you!

I hope I spook you in your sleep.Every night when you lie in bed, I wish you hurt because I can't hold you to keep you warm. to protect you. I wish you were aware of how fortunate you were and that it brought you to your knees because you knew it would never happen... Continue Reading →

Cleanse your life too!

They usually say that cleanliness is next to godliness. And it truly is, too. Spending time on your hands and knees, scrubbing at stains on the kitchen floor that you'd never even noticed, or pulling back the rugs to uncover large expanses of unspoiled floor has a really pure quality to it. Until you gather... Continue Reading →

Rejection rethinked!

Most of the time ‘mixed signals’ means ‘no.’ Or, I don’t know what I want and I am a mixed up person, in a mixed up part of my life, or a flake. All of the above indicate that it’s often best to move on. You don’t owe anyone a date/relationship. Yes, s/he may be... Continue Reading →

The girl who feels “too much”!

Being the girl who feels "too much" in a society where reason always prevails is challenging. It's a continual struggle to control your emotions and not frighten people away. We all conceal our hearts in order to keep them from breaking, but some of us do it more than others.We say "that's terrific," but we... Continue Reading →

You were more than a storm!

There were no in-betweens; you were either everything or nothing. That night, you were breaking windows in a Florida October storm, taking everything in your way, and I was the only one standing there. You were a fucking tsunami of atomic energy. A rocket that flies away and vanishes into nothing. You were a "One-of-a-Kind"... Continue Reading →

Her escape!

She hardly wore her purple-framed spectacles since they were fogged up.She reaches for her scalding hot coffee, made with all the caffeine she requires to guarantee she survives another day, one that appears "normal" to others… She enjoys casual reading, and her favourite genres are love stories and fantasy novels.She took a deep breath to... Continue Reading →

Yours truly!

This universe, with its sapphire blues and forest greens, appears to be waiting for you. The pillow inflated clouds around the core of your imagination, which only you are aware of. You begin to describe the image in your mind's eye, but your lips are unable to utter the words. You start to shake in... Continue Reading →

Fuck it, I miss you!

At midnight, I lie awake wondering about how things might have been if we had been together; if you had recognised what I had discovered. I haven't been sleeping much lately since I've been wishing you felt the same way I do. Yes, I do. The present tense is used. That would have been something... Continue Reading →

Beware of the good guys!

Although everyone warned me about the evil ones, no one told me about the good guys. No one told you about the people who open doors and pull seats out for you. Those who have a knack for saying the perfect thing at the right time. Those who are courteous and respectable. They're the ones... Continue Reading →

My date with the devil!

Your mask loosened and your scales appeared, and you almost deceived me. I was laying next to you, thinking you loved me, but all you really cared about was yourself. In the amazing chaos you manufactured to keep me at your side, I almost missed it. I chose to see your kindness rather than the... Continue Reading →

Love is sometimes a quiet feeling!

I was peeling sweet potatoes in the kitchen when she told me she loved me for the first time. Telling me this seemed like such a commonplace, yet wonderful, moment, yet she did it anyhow, and it was the most exquisite sensation I've ever experienced. Listen, I believe that love is defined by quiet moments.... Continue Reading →

No proof needed!

It's strange how even the tiniest details remind me of you. Almost every day, I visit our coffee shop. I've gotten close to finishing my own cup, but I still can't do it most days. Perhaps it's because the prospect of the end scares me. I don't want to think it's real, even though I... Continue Reading →

The guy who fooled everyone!

When I used to look at you, I could see my—our—future. That, I believe, is the most painful aspect. You felt different right away, in this lovely, almost fairy tale way. I tried to tell myself that it was all a ruse, but you performed flawlessly. I tried but failed to resist you. You tore... Continue Reading →

The Gen Z! (By Khushi Chauhan)

To begin with, am I the only one who just got to know that the Z in Gen-Z stands for zoomers, lol. Didn’t really know what the generation fuss was all about until I actually sat and observed the differences. Gen-Z, the generation that has been raised quite literally on social media and the internet,... Continue Reading →

I’ll be there!

It's past time for me to lay down my guard, swallow my pride, and risk my heart. Maybe I'm the only one, but I'm completely ensorcelled by you. I believe you deserve to know that your presence is just… fantastic. Even on the clearest of nights, the varied hues that shine in those hazel eyes... Continue Reading →

Stigma!

This was written during the post lockdown era I don't know how much of it will be relatable but just have a good read! ☺️ I just wanted my usual life back a few hours ago. I wanted to be in my classroom with my kids for a few hours before racing across town to... Continue Reading →

Art of living!

TRIGGER WARNING! No one warned me how often I'd remember his face, even years after it happened. His shaking thighs were encircled by his hands and the tightness of his fingers. My throat is constricting and my mouth is dry. Years later, anytime someone touches me, a part of me feels it's the Devil, trying... Continue Reading →

Life, one page at a time!

My father would constantly tell the tale of how we, a family of four Indian nationals, almost were caught smuggling a book from the United States to India in the early 1990s (my now and forever home). "You and your brother were both very young, and we had placed the book under the covers that... Continue Reading →

Love you!

If she asks, tell her you're sorry if she reads the poetry. Inform her that you adore her. Tell her how much you like her soft and loving nature. Because it's the truth, tell her you adore her. But don't forget that you adored me as well. Tell her you adore her, but also that... Continue Reading →

Celebrating Soltitude!

As I travelled and strolled down the dusty grey alley in Tbilisi, the leaves rustled quietly.Such an unfamiliar place, such persistent uneaseMy hair was ruffled in front of my face, which I smoothed away with my fingers.My face seemed strange, and my clothes and shoes didn't fit in.I stumbled inside a kitchen with dimly discernible... Continue Reading →

Passion. (By Khushi Chauhan)

Well,I haven't really sat with a cute little notebook journaling about something I was actually passionate about. But if we talk about passion, it is something that keeps you going, just satisfies your soul more than your mind and is something that makes you feel like you actually have a reason to keep going and... Continue Reading →

Hope!

Remember all of the mountains you've conquered before on those days when it feels like you'll never get through this season, this period, or this change. Please recall all of the nights you were sure that the anxiousness would never go away, that you'd never be able to move on from where you were. Time... Continue Reading →

Clash of cultures.

Culture is a culmination of customs, social behaviors, and traditions. It creates a lifestyle that seems comforting, providing us with guidance. When asked about culture, I am often met with the response, “It’s tradition.” Sometimes culture and religion get mixed up and seem to have a relationship with skin color, but in reality, culture is... Continue Reading →

Uncertain Future!

Emotions come and go. We'll never be completely content, and I don't believe we're intended to be. We would never take any chances if we were constantly satisfied and pleased with where we are in life. We'd never take a step ahead or open a door to explore what more is available to us. We'd... Continue Reading →

Hello, Crush.

Hello, Crush. Thank you for your existence. For a little while, I was becoming jaded, until you came along to shine a bright light on my life. It makes no difference to me if we really hook up (well, sort of). I'm just relieved to see you. I don't know you very well, which is... Continue Reading →

5 parts of a love story!

One. A boy and a girl meet. Boy makes friends with girl and invites her to supper. Except for the employees, they speak until they're the only ones remaining. They drive to the beach and sit on the pier, swinging their feet above the ocean while listening to his music. He observes her gazing carefully... Continue Reading →

Feelings

It's challenging to be the girl who has "too many sentiments" in a society where rationality rules. It's a continual fight to keep your sentiments to yourself or to scare others away. We all do it, some more than others, but we all hide our hearts to keep them from breaking. "I love you," we... Continue Reading →

I want you!

I'm not looking for a cliched love tale in which two individuals fall in love with the idea of one other. I'm looking for someone that isn't a cliche and doesn't hide behind their public character. I don't want a love that is only honoured on rare occasions. Instead, I want to be adored and... Continue Reading →

Beqaboo

You should give them an opportunity to succeed. You shouldn't dismiss someone just because you met them without getting to know them. They could astound you. You could develop a strong attachment to them. There's no reason to date someone if you're totally certain they're not the proper person for you. There's no point in... Continue Reading →

Consent!

Since the #MeToo movement gained traction in 2017, women and men have gradually been more comfortable coming up about the sexual abuse that 20 percent of women and 4% of men have endured in their lives—and those are just the ones we know about. I've always been outspoken about problems like this, but I was... Continue Reading →

Why should boys have all the fun?

You don't have to constantly be the sweetheart. Not when it means settling for less than you are entitled to. When it comes to allowing others to walk all over you, no. Not when it involves sacrificing your own pleasure in order to help others feel better. Stop trying to preserve the peace by being... Continue Reading →

Blood!

I'm not a feminist, but I feel my womanly womb clench her muscles and my authority re-wild when I see conglomerates of blood in the toilet bowl, but modesty and insularity heightens still embarrassed if a cotton pad falls out of the bag or if red blood is caught on the sheets, as if I... Continue Reading →

4:1 or 1:4!

We've all rolled our eyes at the nibbi sobo chick who chugs a gym freak tall boy and bats her eyelids at the bunch of boys she's with while coyly saying, "All of my pals are guys, girls are just soooo catty." "All I want to do is chat about sports with someone." We usually... Continue Reading →

Misconceptions!

Many people believe that discussing sexuality freely and building a good connection with it is banned. This might be due to your parents' attitudes about the subject, religious views, or just a lack of knowledge since you haven't researched your body in depth. Why is it that one of our most basic inclinations is deemed... Continue Reading →

Practice!

(Written in GENERAL Context, kindly read and enjoy it, don't run behind me!) As the adage goes, practise makes perfect. We will get better at something if we practise it a lot. In my personal dating and sexual experiences, I've discovered that the girls that are better in bed tend to be older, and this... Continue Reading →

Fear of rejection!

Do you avoid initiating sex with your lover because you're afraid of being rejected? We often ignore our sexual wants and desires because we are afraid of being rejected. I've met ladies who avoided initiating sex for months or even years because they were terrified of it. Ladies, no more! It's time to pursue the... Continue Reading →

I don’t love you!

Yes, we're acquaintances. That isn't even a query. It's impossible to imagine how much we've been through together. We had more faith in each other than anybody else, including our own family members. And you're still the first person I'd contact if there was a funeral, a fire, or a psychological breakdown, whether it was... Continue Reading →

16th April 2020!

It's 4:20 a.m. on Wednesday. Quarantine is on day 40 or thereabouts. I turn over and grab my phone from my bedside table with a groan. I glance at the first few items on my Instagram feed, check a Twitter notice, then scan through my Gmail inbox indifferently. During these last several weeks of working... Continue Reading →

A 5 letter word starting with ‘W’

I had my earbuds in the first time.I don't believe I ever turned on the music."This is bizarre," I said over and again as I strolled down the aisles.After one hour, my vocabulary was completely depleted.I sat down in my car and fired it up. I accompanied you the second time.I warned you it would... Continue Reading →

Ek villain aisa bhi!

I am a huge movie and television buff. There are a variety of films and television series to choose from. Thrillers, comedies, and romantic comedies, to mention a few. I particularly enjoy stories in which I can identify with the protagonist. Because of my "weirdness," I've been likened to Himanshu from Khichdi and Bhavesh Bhai... Continue Reading →

Be you!

You. You. You. You're great. You are incredible, creative, brilliant, smart, funny, humble, committed, loyal, and hardworking, among many other attributes you have yet to discover. You are a great human who is becoming more and more influential in the world with each passing day. Simply existing is awe-inspiring in and of itself. You are... Continue Reading →

Stereotypes!

(Excerpt from an interview with a couple of bisexual friends) Since college, I've known a number of bisexual folks. They, like many bisexuals, have had to cope with negative preconceptions and internalised biphobia, which made coming out tough for me. There are a lot of negative perceptions about bisexuals out there, and while no one... Continue Reading →

To all the girls.. ..!

This is the third part of the Trilogy!You can find the other 2 parts here 👇🏻 Part 1 Part 2 A message of gratitude to people I've loved and lost, as well as those who continue to support me. Some nights, the poetry just flows off my tongue, and the parts fall into place naturally.... Continue Reading →

Love diaries!

I know I had thought about you more than I should have. When I was getting dressed, when I was attempting to fall asleep by staring at my ceiling fan, when I was alone in my room listening to music I didn't mind when your name encompassed me in a tight grip from which I... Continue Reading →

Forgive yourself!

Accept responsibility for what occurred. Because of the errors you committed. Because you didn't show up the way you needed to. You're mad with yourself for not being the person you wanted to be. You're a person. You did the best you could with what you knew and what you had at the time, and... Continue Reading →

Mumbaiii

CHECK OUT MY PREVIOUS WORK ON THE SAME TOPIC Meri Jaan! – Desai Thoughts MEdia, INC. (wordpress.com) Mumbai is India's busiest and biggest city, with an explosive energy that overwhelms everyone. It is a centre of commerce, education, entertainment, art, and culture. The city of Mumbai is known for several historically and culturally significant locations.... Continue Reading →

Your pain matters!

Your distress is understandable.Even if "worse" has been experienced by others.Even if someone else who has had the same experience does not find it to be crippling.It "could have been averted," even though it "could have been avoided."Even if it occurred many years ago.Even if no one else is aware.Your experience is real and genuine,... Continue Reading →

Passion Crimes!

Anita Kapoor, an elementary education major at Ahmedabad University was 18 years old. To support herself and move from her family's house an hour away, she took two jobs, one at a hotel front desk and the other in retail. Anita had a two-bedroom apartment near university with Neha Rai, her roommate (19). Neha and... Continue Reading →

Beginner!

Allow yourself the luxury of being a novice.Everyone starts somewhere, and everyone who is truly exceptional at what they do was once a novice who struggled.And you're free to do so.You are permitted to be a person who does not yet possess all of the answers.It's okay to be flawed, to make errors, and to... Continue Reading →

Starry nights!

I was 21 when I first had a conscious crush on a female. We can track fascinations and extremely tight transitory friendships back in time and discuss whether or not they were crushes, but that's not what we're concentrating on right now. "I want to kiss her in real life," I thought for the first... Continue Reading →

Take care!

To be valuable, you don't have to be productive.Increasing your workload does not make you better, smarter, or more useful. Taking a break isn't the same as being lazy. It gives you a sense of humanity. No one can work indefinitely without wanting to take a break.Nobody is always moving, doing, and producing.Everyone requires quiet... Continue Reading →

Toxic relationships!

Toxic relationships will alter your perspective on love. They will obliterate the distinctions between right and wrong, acceptable and unacceptable.When you've been in a toxic relationship for a long time, you'll justify everything that goes wrong. In order to match your story, you'll distort reality. You could consider jealousy to be charming. Screaming may appear... Continue Reading →

Chewing Gum!

Sexual assault is a trigger warning.There is no sex education in any Indian school.You attend a meeting where the speaker asks, "Who wants it?" while holding out a stick of gum.Of course, everyone does. Gum is a highly sought-after illicit drug and black-market cash.The speaker eats the gum, spits it into his fingers, and then... Continue Reading →

I am guarded!

There’s a reason why my walls are built so high, and there’s a reason it will take you longer than expected to bring them down. There’s a reason why I’m guarded. I’m guarded because I’ve been hurt before. We all have. My weakness is that I carry the pain with me as a constant reminder... Continue Reading →

HOW?

There’s a very specific method I like to use when I’m trying to decide whether or not someone’s worth dating. First, I sit down and think – long and hard – about every single trait that I desire in a potential partner. I debate the pros and cons of various possible professions. I determine the importance of... Continue Reading →

It’s you always!

I have loved you like a candle flame. Like a star too big to fall from grace. A winter storm. an unopened book. A sleeping meadow. A humid august. A wishing well. I have loved you like the soles of shoes worn in every country. Like the back of my hand. Like the inside of... Continue Reading →

Forgive yourself!

Forgive yourself for what happened. For the mistakes you made. For not showing up the way up the way you needed to. For not being the person you wanted to be. You’re human. You did the best you could in the moment given what you knew and what you had, and that’s all you can... Continue Reading →

A strong woman leads a strong daughter!

When you have a strong mother, you realize you don’t need a man to find happiness. You realize that any girl can flourish on her own, without a hand to hold. You realize that your love life has zero correlation with how successful you become, with how fulfilled you feel. When you have a strong mother, you learn to... Continue Reading →

I am sorry!

You could send me a text message with only one or two words and I will still overthink what your sentence meant. You could smile at me from across a crowded room and I will overthink what the look meant. I wish I knew what other people were thinking because I spend so much of... Continue Reading →

Asal mein!

Some people will never be yours, no matter how much you want them to be. What’s yours is yours, and always will be. But what if you want someone, and it’s not in the cards? Sometimes we fight for things that simply aren’t there. The person you deserve will make it obvious. They will put... Continue Reading →

Date someone!

Date someone who pulls forth your greatest qualities.There's more to it than good manners, compassion, or development and learning.However, the one who teaches you how to begin living.Even if everyone else thinks it's weird, it makes sense to you.Date someone who encourages you to accomplish things you're afraid of.Even if they are the only one... Continue Reading →

How to love someone forever?

In the past, I was always trying to find someone to love me unconditionally (and forever), but I was always so hesitant to love someone the same way because I was scared of getting hurt. Looking back, I see the irony and hypocrisy in my thinking—I knew what I wanted, but I was not ready... Continue Reading →

Life

This is me learning to slow down along the way to notice the way a stranger smiles at me randomly in the street. This is me learning to be more present at the moment and enjoy the everyday little things, like that quick chat I have with the barista till the coffee gets ready or... Continue Reading →

You’re gonna lose her!

You'll lose her as soon as she begins to feel underappreciated, as soon as she begins to wonder if you even notice all of the lovely things she's done for you, as soon as she begins to wonder why she bothers to be good to you in the first place.If you fail to thank her... Continue Reading →

Where does love come from?

There are songs in this world that feel like love. They are slowed and warm, as though they are suddenly playing inside your belly. The sound goes deeper as the butterflies inside you carry them up and down, creating a storm of uncertain warm feelings called love. At that moment, even if you don’t have... Continue Reading →

Serial Killers! (Part 3)

Have a look at this. Part 1 link here. Part 2 link here. Are they any different from us?Today I'm gonna talk about one of the 3 very famous and my favourite serial killers!It's gonna be a trilogy!What/ Who are serial killers?People who tend to murder a lot of people are serial killers, these people... Continue Reading →

Alone

You’ve heard the lie that solitude is losing. That empty-handed is never what you want to be, because those who go at life solo are broken. They don’t fit. They don’t function. They aren’t whole. And maybe you feel that way sometimes. You sit in muted light and wonder when the day will feel full... Continue Reading →

That’s what they do!

I try to lace my work with optimism because a guiding principle in my own life has been that the most tragic things in our lives almost always precede the most incredible. I think that, at any given point, we are faced with the choice of whether to move on with what the universe gives... Continue Reading →

Maybe it’s time to change!

I am writing as a cis-gendered white female; I am writing as someone who is aware of their social and economic privilege; I am writing as someone who is blessed to have a supportive and loving circle of family and friends. I happen to fit into the margins of what society deems ‘acceptable’, and for... Continue Reading →

To whomsoever it may concern!

To Whom It May Concern, I feel like this is long overdue. I never knew that my body type would be the concern of so many people. Growing up, I always knew I stood out. Wearing leggings in grade school because I couldn’t fit into kids’ jeans or pants or skirts. Being told that later... Continue Reading →

Maybe I love?

I have had a long relationship with MaybeMaybe I should go thereMaybe I should do thisMaybe I shouldn’t have done thatA phone full of screenshots of places that maybe I want to goBookcases full of cabins that would maybe make me happierMaybe I am always running awayMaybeOr Maybe I am looking outside too muchAt every... Continue Reading →

Fire and Storm!

He was a summer storm, full of flashing lightning and quaking thunder that should have left her trembling. She was a fire on her own, and the brush she passed over was always left to ruin. She knew quite well that the rain would bring an end to her, even if she was a fire... Continue Reading →

Maybe love isn’t easy!

I see photos of these perfect couples with their perfect loveA love they say is simple and easyAnd for so longI believed themAnd so I sought a perfect loverTo share a perfect loveBut I am not simple and I am not easyNor am I perfectAnd neither are you Loving you isn’t simpleFor I am a... Continue Reading →

This kaleidoscopic life!

When you’re little, they don’t tell you about all the colors you’ll feel. They tell you things are black and white. Right or wrong. Yes or no. Stop or go. Short or tall. Rich or poor. Fat or thin. Love or hate. There’s no in between until you start to realize there is. You learn about... Continue Reading →

The truth!

I am staring from the inside of a glass jar,Hands up, pressed against the glass.Or is the glass pressing against me?I am on the inside looking out.I am stuck behind a barrier between the real world and everything that is going on within me. I wish I could tell you everything that is going on.I... Continue Reading →

I know who I am!

In stories there are clear lines drawn to define characters and circumstances;illustrate and demonstratewhat they are, and what they are not.The audience often has a good sense of what’s what. Real life, however, is nuanced and enigmatic;lines are blurred and confusing,circumstances are ambiguous and inconclusive,people are ever-changing. Maybe that’s why we’re all so anxious.Maybe that’s... Continue Reading →

I wanted to!

I wanted to write you a poem. I wanted to write you a page full of verses. I wanted to show you the alliteration of our souls and how since I’ve loved you I feel like I’ve met myself. I wanted to tell you that I didn’t realize I was on autopilot until your soul... Continue Reading →

This is why!

It doesn’t matter whether you were officially in a relationship with her. The fact that you flirted with her was enough. The fact that you gave her attention was enough. The second that you smiled at her, it was all over. She was locked on you. Attached to the idea of you. It’s not because she’s shallow.... Continue Reading →

Something about her!

She likes to overthink a lot, she likes to over analyze, she likes to walk when her chest aches.She likes kisses at midnights in the messages, and she gets quiet when she’s anxious. She takes pictures of just about everything, and she plays with her nails when she gets nervous. She is caring without a... Continue Reading →

Better!

To begin, I would like to state that I find your unbearable fascination with women like me honoring, truly. But I do believe that your obsessive tendencies have given me no other option rather than to intervene. Your obsession frightens me to the point where I am afraid to walk alone at night because I... Continue Reading →

Grow up!

The second star to the right shines a light so rare. It shines in the night for you. If it’s the neverland you need, it will lead you there. Only I won’t be there with you. You’d remember me as the darling of your night, the highs of your flights. I am the songs you... Continue Reading →

Your loss!

To the boy who never gave me the chance to love him:Do you still think about our time together in university?Do you lay in bed replaying the moments that we shared together?Do you ever stay up thinking “what if”?I know that the answer is no to all of the above. When things were over between... Continue Reading →

Nice girl!

You don’t always have to be the nice girl. Not when it means accepting less than you deserve. Not when it means allowing others to walk over you. Not when it means sacrificing your own happiness to make the people around you more comfortable. Stop playing nice in order to keep the peace. Especially when... Continue Reading →

Too much!

It’s difficult being the girl who thinks “too much” in a world where logic trumps feelings. It’s a constant battle to either quiet your feelings or scare people away. We all do it, some more than others—we hide our hearts to protect them from shattering. We feel “I love you,” but say “that’s great.” We... Continue Reading →

Dosti

It started with Aarvi and Tarsh as it often did in those days. She brought her new Aarya friend to the party, and the little bitch made a move on Tarsh, so Tanvi, my BFF tossed her aside. Tarsh would choose Aarvi over Aarya because her boobies were bigger and that’s how that worked.  Tanvi... Continue Reading →

Love Story

My friends thought I was crazy when I hired Swara as our new babysitter. “She’s too hot,” they said. “She will bring wolves to your door,” another said. The “wolves” being other dads who would become enamored with her hypnotic beauty. My friends were not being hyperbolic. Hatvik would have wept over Swara’s perfect hip-to-waist... Continue Reading →

Sacha pyaar

Early on in the relationship, you might feel butterflies in your stomach. You might feel your heart skip a beat. You might get nervous at the thought of seeing this person again. But that feeling isn’t going to last. Eventually, you’re going to grow comfortable with your partner — and that’s okay. In fact, it’s... Continue Reading →

Finding solace!

When you’re with the right person, you won’t feel the need to change who you are or pretend to be someone else to get their attention. They won’t care if you’re too loud or too quiet. They won’t care if you’re a CEO or a freelancer or unemployed. They won’t care if your waist is... Continue Reading →

Can beauty be a curse?

My friends thought I was crazy when I hired Swara as our new babysitter. “She’s too hot,” they said. “She will bring wolves to your door,” another said. The “wolves” being other dads who would become enamored with her hypnotic beauty. My friends were not being hyperbolic. Hatvik would have wept over Swara’s perfect hip-to-waist... Continue Reading →

Ussi ko chuno jo tumhe chune!

Pursuing a woman is an art of its own. Pursuing is underrated and easy to dismiss. Humans get into routines, we like what’s comfortable. Once you’ve been with the same person for a certain period of time everything becomes habitual. Every. Last. Thing. We don’t talk about the importance of being perused enough. We all... Continue Reading →

Pehle aap! Pehle aap!

You should say I love you first. And no, you should not be making excuses in your head. Sure, the situation could become awkward if he does not reciprocate your feelings. But those three simple words hold so much weight and meaning to him, and therefore, it is highly unlikely that he will walk away from you... Continue Reading →

Ek tarfa pyaar!

Leave if the love is one-sided, if you feel like you’re the only one putting energy into the relationship, the one coming to compromises, the one making sacrifices. Leave if you feel like you’re underappreciated or disrespected. Leave if it feels like the relationship is off-balance, like you are offering up so much more than... Continue Reading →

Samajdaar ko ishara kaafi!

When you’re younger, everything feels a little bit more emotionally heightened. That’s not to say once you get older your senses are suddenly dulled, but it’s just like more of a selective process that your heart has to decide what’s really worth getting worked up over. I think back to just a few years ago,... Continue Reading →

Zindagi… kaisi hai paheli!

As charming as life is, it gives us its endless lessons on matters of the heart. They’re sometimes bittersweet, but they’re always there to help us connect the dots. Among many lessons is our outlook and attitude towards the people who come in and out of our lives. We all have our share of people... Continue Reading →

Maybe it is what it is!

We’ve been on a rocky road. Ever since we’ve started talking, it’s been a rocky road. You weren’t like anyone else. You were different than anyone I’ve ever met. You ARE different than anyone in this universe. We have our ups and downs and it’s completely crazy—there’s pure insanity. I’m far from perfect, you’re far... Continue Reading →

2nd Best

Whether you are in the top two of your class, in the top two of the list of people to get that promotion, the second favorite child, his second love, or just the second option in any existing list there is, read this and know that these circumstances have no power over you, hence they... Continue Reading →

Connecting the dots

I keep trying to recall how we got here. I’m trying to connect the dots from the first time we met to the time we found ourselves sitting together late at night, talking about the most random things. And then I keep trying to connect those to the mornings I’d catch myself smiling first thing... Continue Reading →

Woh teen shabd

There are three words that haunt me like the sound of a scream in the night echoing off of whatever it can find They cling to life when they are told to let go Those three words fell so easily out of your mouth and were quickly packaged and shipped to your house where we... Continue Reading →

Soulmate

Will I ever find my soulmate?Will I ever find someone who loves me more than life itself- or even harder-someone I love more than life itself?It’s cyclesI meet youI like youI ask youYou say yesYou’re happyI’m tormentedI end itYou’re unhappyI’m still tormentedNobody’s feelings get hurt but yoursThe guilt of your feelings digging a hole in... Continue Reading →

Hum Tum aur Woh

I had forgotten I ever lived in the city proper until I remembered you. And when I did, I wondered if I would recognize you if I ever saw you on the street. I probably wouldn’t, but I remembered your hair weren’t quite black, but tinged with it, and I think you wore glasses because... Continue Reading →

Choose wisely!

It’s easy to wake up every morning with a full cup and even easier to allow everyone to take from your cup throughout the day without even realizing it. You’re a giver. You’re a people pleaser. You like to lend a helping hand whenever and wherever you can. There’s nothing wrong with this. There’s nothing... Continue Reading →

The old house!

In the old house, we sometimes slept late. I’d wake up far past the time set on my alarm because I heard voices outside my door, or cats meowing for their delayed breakfast. We’d sleep late, or we’d wake up early and drink coffee on the couch and watch the kind of Sunday morning shows... Continue Reading →

Body vs Soul!

Exhausted isn’t just enough to describe the state I am going through right now. I am exhausted yes, this tiredness is beyond physiological tiredness. It’s psychological, it’s emotional. I am tired of being strong. I am tired of trying to put on that smile on my face every day of a strong man and be... Continue Reading →

Why?

Some people get mad when you start loving yourself more because now you say no a lot more than yes. Now you use your voice and say things they’re not used to hearing from you. Now you know your worth and you don’t settle for the bits and pieces you used to settle for when... Continue Reading →

When you’re toxic!

Laura had been avoiding me for weeks. Whenever I saw her, she made up lame excuses for why she hadn’t returned my calls, and I was getting more and more frustrated. She had been my closest friend, yet here she was, being evasive and weird. Finally, I confronted her.  “Can we just talk?” I said quietly,... Continue Reading →

To lakes and you!

I took a walk along the eastern lakeshore this morning. The one with a view that glitters in the daylight and splashes in melodies at night. And it made me think about how beautiful nature and the water’s magical combination truly is. It’s a symbol of inspiring love. Each morning, the lake basks in its love of the sun’s warmth. Its... Continue Reading →

Your beauty!

It reveals something to me about loss, but I think it’s the most wonderful thing in the world to go into the woods season after season and see the same animals there every time and know exactly where to find them. It’s the way we know how the lofty brown squirrel chewing on pinecones will... Continue Reading →

Toxic relationship!

We can very easily mistake attachment for love. We can very easily mistake gripping, and clasping at a relationship for fighting for it, for caring in ways most don’t these days. But that can often mean that we’re fostering an unhealthy attachment. Attachment speaks to trying to keep something in your life from a place... Continue Reading →

This is the new loneliness!

It’s a weekday evening and you’re feeling restless. You’re texting friends and you’re watching Netflix and you’re on your laptop and you’re scrolling through Tumblr or Facebook or Instagram or Twitter. Your attention is in ten different directions, yet there’s a tug, a tiny voice in the back of your mind. It asks: what are you... Continue Reading →

Don’t ignore the red flags!

I’m slowly learning that ignoring the red flags you see in the beginning is probably the worst thing you could do to yourself because they never turn green and they never change. I’m slowly learning that the old cliche that the red flags you see in the beginning become the reasons you leave later is... Continue Reading →

Don’t stop investing in yourself!

I hope you never stop investing in yourself no matter who you’re with or how much you’re loved or how much you’ve accomplished. I hope you don’t suppress your needs or desires because you’re afraid of how people will perceive you or how they’ll judge you. I hope you can always be enough for yourself... Continue Reading →

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